Last Night I learned that dreams do come true and that all you have to do is believe in them. The Utah Jazz are a fine example of that without a dream they wouldn't be in the conference final playing the unstoppable Spurs, yet they keep the dream alive playing just a little bit harder each and every game. Derek Fisher how amazing his daughter fighting what could be an incurable disease and beating the odds while he shoots some of the best Basketball of his career, amazing!!! Now I am not a huge Basketball fan and I don't sit and watch each and every game but I realize what dreams are and how you can be inspired by them everyday. I met someone who was fifth generation farmer. Barley making it as a farmer and has started his own Multimillion Dollar Company based on a hope and a dream. Amazing how you draw those who are inspiring when you need inspiration. Success comes in sometimes big or small packages but it comes when you believe, or at least that's what I have come to believe. I just am amazed that when you put your mind to something how it can come to you. As I have sat down and read Adult Utah I have been amazed at the negativity that takes place it's as though people don't have many nice things to say. Is this hobby worth the negativity I don't think so, is it worth the heartache or the upset feelings I find that if there is helpful suggestions I find those to be more helpful but to nitpick or just to be rude BORING. I used to get so involved and be so passionate about that board and now I have found that to be wasted energy pouring my heart and soul into something that was just a few angry dudes wasting their own time and energy. As I sit down and reflect on Nine Years in this industry I often feel the odd man out as if I care too much I don't know if this a bad thing or a good thing. I just feel that the connection is important. I sometimes get my feelings hurt when I receive a bad review or if someone doesn't like me. I don't understand this I guess at some level we all want to be accepted or not rejected and or displaced. It's like when in high school. I was neither popular or a loser just in the middle and as an adult I want to be in the popular crowd. Wow this is a raw outpouring an almost cleansing of my soul as though I am trying to reach out and to that lifesaving ring in the vast ocean called the Dirty Thirties that we are in such a hurry to grow up but it's a process not one that can go any faster or even any slower but sometimes slower or faster would be nice. Character is what this Blog is about and I am learning what it means to have true character and that it is alright to be respected. And that dreams are made and broken but it's your character that gets you through the hard times and the good times. But was it so bad to be in the middle probably not and probably good for me in a lot of ways. I am just learning who I am I have found that my character and integrity is strong and that makes my dreams come true.