Wow has it been a year since this crazy website got it start amd so long since I have written to all of you. I have been quite busy getting my butt back to school this coming week, so I must apologize it maybe a little harder to see me I hope that you will take the time out of your busy schedule to make time to see me as I value my time with you. I will have a very set schedule and will be that way for at least the next three months while I finish Beauty School it's time it's also getting time for me to began the road to retirement although I don't think it will be soon I am going to start following my dreams and those who know me well know that know me well know why I want to do so much with my life and well while escorting has taken me far I need to spread my wings and began to fly, I think that I am afraid to jump out of the nest and I do think cutting hair and going to law school are calling my name but I cant let go just not yet. So I found the song that puts my feelings to each of you......It is not implying anything except what I have explained above but puts it in the best perspective that I can put it in.

Big Girls Don't Cry

Da Da Da Da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now

Your probably on your flight back to your hometown

I need some shelter of my own protection baby

To be with myself instead of calamity

Peace, Serenity

I hope you know , I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I am going to miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And Big girls don't cry

Don't Cry

Don't Cry

Don't Cry

The Path that I am walking

I must go alone

I must take the baby steps until I am full grown

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they

And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

Its Personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I am going to miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And Big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the yard

We'll play jacks and uno cards

Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine

Valentine

Yes you can hold my hand if you want too

Cause I want to hold yours too

We will playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home

It's getting late, dark outside

I need to be with myself instead of calamity

Peace, Serenity

I hope you know , I hope you know

That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, Myself and I

We've got some straightenin' out to do

And I am going to miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've got to get a move on with my life

It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry

Don't Cry

Don't Cry

Don't Cry

So much craziness has happened this year from my father being in a horrific accident to just blossoming and trying to do new things with my life and changing or metamorphosing into a self assured woman. To realizing that we all have deep vulnerabilities and we are just reaching out to each other in some way. I never thought that I would slow down and began to enjoy the simple things of life but it feels real nice to begin to do so. I guess what I am trying to say is that I a m slowing down so that I can enjoy more and take more time getting to know myself and others around me rather it be you or my closest circle of friends. I am happy a lot happier than I have been and it feels real good to be there but I am still trying to figure it out so bare with me and I will probably be a much better woman for it. Just another one of my late night thoughts put to prose.