This Is An Open Letter To All My Haters, Fans, Former Friends. Old Employers and Specifically The Piece Of Shit who decided to use me for his own personal gain in his Newspaper ArticleÃf¢eÃ,¦Ãf¢eÃ,¦..

            First I would like to say that I am open and honest with all people that I meet. I feel like the more open I am the connection that I have with people will be more honest. I admit that I am not perfect and would never say I havent done or said  something that may have hurt people and probably destroyed a few relationships along the way and a lot of them I could care less about but there has been that have hurt. I am just too vulnerable and that vulnerability has backfired a few too many times. I have been the banter on TER, Adult Utah. Police Blogs I am sure, Escort Services, Strip Clubs and my Favorite the Utah Daily Chronicle not that anyone will find the article as its been a hot topic at University since it came out. I am not ashamed of who I am and what I have done to get where I am today. I dont think that there have been too many fatalities along the way and I am actually an articulate and smart young lady who enjoys the attention I get from me. Am I stupid to not want attention from my male counter parts I am only Thirty Two but I guess thats really old? I am attentive I do the best to make anyone who meets me feel at ease rather the bum at the park or the homeless mom from Louisiana whose son needed to be properly dressed  for this long winter that we hope just ended. Have I said some shitty stuff about people yeah I have but it hasnt not ever been honest and I stand by every word I have said yes have I been completely honest about who I am yes and  I am the crypt keeper of the secrets that I can take to my grave. I have met amazing people in this remarkable journey some have taught me a lot. Jodi the owner of Companions taught me how to survive no matter how much shit she through I mean this figuratily not literally. Lana wow I think she taught me loyalty and where it lies when it really comes down to it. Christy wow an amazing heart thats all. Dez tenacity , Gina kindness just honest kindness, Sabrina Bravery in the face of adversity when who would have thought we were brave as we were the day we did what no one thought could be done wink. Anna mysterious but strong very strong, Ashley self respect and how you are still amazing whatever comes your way even if it hurts. Jena its not wrong to want the best of everything including of yourself. Jessi my new found friend Thank You for believing that we are amazing women who just are, Miss April thanks for just being there to listen. This network is strong and each person I meet teaches me something about myself I hurt just like you guys do , I am happy just like you guys are I enjoy my son and my family although worried are amazing I come from strong people so no article that can be written can hurt me only those who I Love and cherish so heres my challenge to everyone who reads this be a little more considerate and we ladies have crazy lives just like you but that doesnt matter when we are with you but just understand there are those days. Sometimes my life is more entertaining than I would like it to be and I am not trying to preach to anyone do what you do. I am not here to judge but I wouldnt like to be the front page article in a school newspaper, if you have a problem with me call me and I am sure I am a grown woman and can handle it. I am not afraid anymore say what you may about me but I am for real and I wont lie to you and I am happy to meet anyone for lunch about whatever they want to talk about if I have done something to you my info is plastered all over the world wide web. But this is where I draw lines dont FUCK with my family dont call them dont put me on the front page of your paper and have the balls to tell me what you need to say to my face without hiding behind another persons name, or behind a phone line or just giving out my info to who you think its pertinent. I certainly dont put people on blast for all of their faults and I dont tend to ruin peoples lives. I am a human and I have emotions that sucks huh an escort with a heart. Life is what you make it and I intend to be the same person that I have always been but just to let my haters and those who like to muddle my name through the mud read the lyrics below and thats what I think of you.

Xoxoxox

Nikki

Never have you seen in ya lifetime

A more divine southern rapper with a swagga like mine

Facing all kinda time but smile like I'm fine

Brag with such passion and shine without trying

Believe me, pains a small thing to a giant

I was born without a dime

Out the gutter I climbed

Spoke my mind and didn't stutter one time

Ali said even the greatest gotta suffer sometime

So I huff and puff rhymes

Lyrics so sick wit it

Set the standards in Atlanta how to get get get it

So you up and coming rappers wanna diss, just kill it

I'm officially the realest, point blank, period

Whether I still live in the hood or just visit

Whatever you can do in the hood I done did it

That's why the dope boys and the misfits feel it

This still the city long as Tip live it, listen

I ain't dead (nah) I ain't done(nah)

I ain't scared(of what), I ain't run(from what)

But still I stand (yeah)

No matter what VA here I am

I ain't break(never), I ain't fold(never)

They hate me more(so? )

Yeah I know

Here I go

No matter what shortie, here I go

No matter what shortie

You let the blog sites and the magazines tell it

I'm showed to b jail until 2027

Rather see me in the cell then

Instead of this new McLaruen

God will take you to hell, just to get you to heaven

So even tho it's heavy, the load I will carry

Grin and still bear it, win and still share it

Apologies to the fans, I hope you can understand it

Like a change in direction, even when you ain't planned it

All you can do it handle it, worst thing you can do is panic

Use it to your advantage, avoid insanity matters

To conquer, every obstacle, make impossible possible

Even when winning illogical, losing is still far from optional

Yeah they wanna see you shot up in the hospital

But, one life like punches, block the counter like a boxer do

Been locked inside mi casa too long, I did a song

To make it known that the king lives on

I ain't dead (nah) I ain't done(nah)

I ain't scared(of what), I ain't run(from what)

But still I stand (yeah)

No matter what VA here I am

I ain't break(never), I ain't fold(never)

They hate me more(so? )

Yeah I know

But here I go

No matter what shortie, here I go

No matter what shortie

Even the solitude, that still know how to do

I show you how to do, what you do, you ain't gotta clue

All you do is follow dudes

Sound like a lotta dudes

I'll weather whatever storm

Make it out without a bruise

I understand why, now when my hands tied

They take shots cause if I'm out it's a landslide

But revenge is best served as a cold dish

And suckas will get served better know this

Guess it was understood, for me it was over with

But I don't quit, if you ain't noticed yet

They couldn't wait to say goodnight shorty

So they can try to rhyme, act and look like shorty

Go get a beat from toomp, and make a hook like shorty

Before ya know it I'm back what it look like shorty

I lost my partner and my daughter in the same year

Somehow I rise above my problems and remain here

Yeah, and I hope the picture painted clear

If your hearts fill with faith then you can't fear

Wonder how I face years and I'm still chillin

Easy, let go and let god deal with it, ya dig

I ain't dead (nah) I ain't done(nah)

I ain't scared(of what), I ain't run(from what)

Still I stand (yeah)

No matter what VA here I am

I ain't break(never), I ain't fold(never)

They hate me more(so? )

Yeah I know

But there I go

No matter what shortie, here I go

No matter what shortie