So okay today has been a eye opening debacle. I danced with a devil and I got burned. I think that sometimes we meet somebody and like a loud Vegas Marquee they are flashy but you look at the flashing lights and you are impressed but then you see the next one. And if you go there often you get kinda sick of it and hang out at your spot quietly and unassuming. I guess what I am saying this Vegas can be fun if you go with the right people but the flashy lights get boring and the ride it ain't so fun anymore. And guess what you find somewhere a little calmer a little more quiet and you breathe because you finally can . I am amazed how much my life has changed since I became an independent. I think that being an indie has prompted my mind in so many different ways and made me become my own little CEO. Darling Niki Inc.... And what would I sell?????? Humor I don't think I ever lost it but it has raged out of control a good laugh with close friends that's what you remember not the times you fight it is amazing how our brains justify our moods thoughts feelings and behaviors. And more times than not I let my heart lead the way sometimes it's right on sometimes it's not. I am not scared anymore I have shed my fear and realize there are friends and there are people who exploit you and pretend that you are their friend and end up stabbing you in the back. But the funny thing about those kinda people just get more and more in their midst and people like the flashy neon sign get sick of the flashing light and move on. I have realized that I have made great strides and have changed my ways and have realized that it's time to let go of the past and move to the future!!!!!!